Showing posts with label major arcana. Show all posts
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Sunday, January 20, 2013

Tarot In-Depth: Fool Tarot Reading

From Pollack's Tarot Wisdom, the card positions in the spread:

1. How have I been a Fool in my life?
2. How has it helped me?
3. How has it hurt me?
4. Where in my life for I need to be more Foolish?
5. Where will the Fool not serve me?
6. Where do I find the Fool outside myself?
7. What gifts does it bring me?

There were no notes on the layout of the spread, so I determined a spread that made the most sense to me. Reading from left to right, rather than vertical, since I find those easier to work with on a practical level — I separated the Fool card out of the deck and set it to the side first, then laid out the cards in order, with (1) being the closest to the Fool card, then (2) and (4) being paired as positive aspects (above) and (3) and (5) being paired as negative or harmful aspects (below), coming back together again for (6) and (7).




I tried to read this layout somewhat intuitively, without reference to any books, in part to help me get better at doing in-the-moment readings, and in part because I want the Fool energy to be pervasive throughout and I didn't necessarily want to get bogged down with complex interpretations of the other cards.

My interpretation...

Where have I been a Fool in my life? Art/Temperance (XIV) — Seeking that point of balance, the blending or reconciliation of opposites, sometimes leading to paradox or contradiction — on the one hand, recognizing these paradoxes as internal aspects of myself, while on the other hand, working to manifest them in the world through mixing and mingling, working with the forces in tension in the world around me. This reflects the aspect of the Fool that is both active and passive, at the zero-point in the center of all things and also the active movement that moves on a journey through life. This card might also be suggesting that I see the Fool primarily through the lens of Temperance, this balancing of opposites.

How has it helped me? Eight of Cups — A certain amount of restlessness, leaving behind the carefully constructed and contained life to seek elsewhere, to return to the "source" so to speak. The activity and enthusiasm of the Fool has helped me to avoid stagnation, continuing to provoke my curiosity. There might be a certain sense of "divine dissatisfaction" here, with the Fool always ready to go off with only a small pack, leaving behind his old life to seek out a new one.

How has it hurt me? Eight of Pentacles — At the same time, this restless energy and tendency to always be seeking a new life might prevent me from settling down comfortably to do the steady, necessary work or to cultivate and enjoy the fruits of my labor. The Fool isn't exactly the type to "settle down and get a job."

The two eights that are paired here suggest a tension bound up in stability or stagnation — the tension of two that naturally gives rise to movement pulling against the stability of four that tends to ground things, pin them down. The Fool has helped me, on an emotional level, by nurturing my curiosity and keeping me engaged — and also perhaps letting me let go of old emotions or psychological states that no longer serve me (maybe in this way it might be "foolish" to forgive old hurts, for instance). On a material or physical level, though, the Fool's tendency to always look for something new might undermine my desire to establish myself, find some stability and bring my work to full fruition in the physical world.

Where in my life do I need to be more Foolish? The Magician (I) — My first instinct in interpreting this card is that it is "foolish" to believe in magic, let alone try to be a magician. This might be suggesting, then, that I could stand to be a little bit more trusting, innocent, enthusiastic and active in my approach to magical work (or any creative work of manifestation) — and that being more open will help me connect with and understand the elements of the world on a deeper level.

Where will the Fool not serve me? The High Priestess (II) — Inner wisdom and mystery, the initiation that comes from parting the veil between the worlds. I find this card difficult to interpret in this position. Perhaps to a certain extent this card suggests that the Fool's more negative or harmful tendency to undermine order and structure, and to turn everything to ash with irony and ridicule, might not serve me well in developing my inner wisdom and intuition. Maybe a tendency towards cynicism and mockery, brought to bear on the inner life, can jeopardize the process that leads to this internal initiation into the mysteries. (Or perhaps this card just indicates that the Fool is not much concerned with what the high priestess represents. The Fool does not "serve" the high priestess, and does not have anything much to do with her work, either through provoking curiosity or exposing chaos...?)

Where do I find the Fool outside myself? Wheel of Fortune (X) — The ever-turning wheel of chance and its unpredictability. Our inability to control "fate," or coincidence, and how it can sometimes seem arbitrary and ridiculous and chaotic. I find the Fool outside myself in the endless turning cycles that seem to lift up some and topple others, ensuring that nothing remains stagnant, everything is interconnected and cycles back in an on-going process. The chaos and unpredictability of the Fool is represented here, but also the energy and curiosity involved with discovering what is new and different about life. I also think it's interesting to have the wheel here by a gear, rather than a wheel of transportation (like a wagon wheel), since this echoes my thoughts on the Fool not only as the empty space in the center around which the wheel turns, but also the empty spaces between the gears that are always moving and turning, as these spaces allow the gears to turn and interlock with each other, they make the whole process possible.

What gifts does it bring me? Six of Swords — Curiosity and exploration, especially as related to the rational, inquisitive mind. The gift of the Fool (especially as it manifests outside myself, I think) is the impetus to always be exploring and discovering new things about the world as circumstances continually change and new possibilities are always arising. There's a sense of completion, on the one hand, but not necessarily of culmination that brings things to a close — instead, there's a glimpse of wholeness that is still part of an on-going process as the cycle continues. It's like a foot that touches the ground in the middle of a run, rather than two feet planted firmly as the person stands still: the next foot is already in the air again, moving forward to the next thing.

Other patterns: It's interesting that so many Major Arcana cards appear, especially in prominent positions. In cards (1), (6) and (7) there is the repeated imagery of the wheel or circle in one way or the other — the Wheel of Fortune being the most obvious, but also the spiraling yin-yang symbol of Temperance and the sword-spoked wheel in the Six of Swords. Interestingly, the symbol of the circle or wheel also appears in a more subtle way in cards (2) and (4), as the full moon above the ocean in the Eight of Cups, and the ouroboros encircling the occult designs and sigils etched into the starry night sky above the Magician. On the other hand, in the High Priestess, the moon is a crescent, an incomplete circle (I think a waxing crescent, just after sunset), which might give a hint as to why the Fool "will not serve" in this particular aspect — if the Fool is a figure of innocence that takes the world at face value, this might suggest that this energy will not serve in exploring what is hidden or shrouded in shadow, only partly illuminated or manifested. Maybe this is the aspect of the Fool's card, stepping off the cliff without taking into account what is unseen (the future, the potential danger).

Thursday, January 17, 2013

Tarot In-Depth: The Fool (0)

1/13


The madness descends. Beginning with the Fool (which is sometimes numbered zero, and sometimes not numbered at all; sometimes placed at the beginning of the deck, and sometimes placed as the penultimate Major Arcana card just before the World/Universe).

Maybe this is appropriate. Last night reading Pollack's chapter on the Fool, I found myself frustrated and disappointed. Though her book is the result of forty years of study of the tarot, and more specifically of a workshop intensive she taught during which she focused on a single card for an entire day, her chapter on the Fool left me feeling like there just wasn't much to say. Her insights jive with the same repeated ideas also found in Place and KHZ — which is that the Fool is a card of potential, that which comes even before manifestation, the urge towards new beginnings and new journeys that begins its work even before we are conscious of it. She adds the interesting note on the card's historical meaning, which for a long time emphasized it as depicting a madman, someone who was a wanderer and even somewhat dangerous in his carelessness and unpredictability. He was not someone to emulate. He was not the innocent, happy-go-lucky Wise Fool who leaps off into the abyss to start his exciting new adventure, but the "outsider" who, in an almost threatening but also pathetic or pitiable way, lingers beyond the rules and structures of society, is passed over and overlooked by them. Eventually, this interpretation evolved into the more mystical or esoteric meaning of the "pure potential" and the childlike innocence that compels us to act on impulse or intuition (or, not even either of these, not yet, it is the urge behind impulse) — the unformed urge which, when it does eventually express itself, expresses itself as movement in such complete harmony with the forces of the world that it seems to have no will of its own. The Fool steps off the cliff without worry, because he cannot even conceive of what reason there would be to worry, and in this way he is carried along. Pollack compares this to the Taoist concept of wu-wei, active nonaction. I disagree here, as I think this passive fluidity is itself a kind of expression, and here supposedly the Fool is what is prior to any expression. It's important to note, for instance, that wu-wei is not the Tao, it is a way of following or embodying the Tao; for the Tao that can be named is not the Tao.

And that's it. That's all there is to say about the Fool. And saying even that much is too much, since the Fool that can be named is not the Fool.

Which is profoundly boring. Because how can you have a discussion about something that cannot be talked about? What is there to say about the lack of manifestation, the urge that comes prior to movement and embodiment, that which is defined by its absence?

I was in a cranky mood last night while reading and thinking about this, and feeling bullied into silence by the complete lack of interesting insight I had into this card. I really could not see the point in it. I felt, in fact, downright hostile towards The Fool. I felt like yelling at it, "What is the point of you?! All of these people have built up systems of symbolism around this deck, and they have made one neat little box into which they have shoved the concept of 'Nothing' and called it 'The Fool' — but of course, you aren't nothing, because you have a place in the system now. How can a 'something', like a card or a symbol or a placement on the Tree of Life, be a 'nothing'?

This frustration ended with me remembering our walk with Finn at Deception Pass earlier in the day, and the cliffs that fell off into the water below. I was suddenly overwhelmed by a nauseating sense of horror and vertigo at the thought of standing on those cliffs — like The Fool on his precipice with his dog nipping at his heels — and I found myself breaking into a cold sweat. I'm not sure I can explain exactly why it seemed so horrifying to me, but it had something to do with the fact that I couldn't feel the height, or the depth, or the absence. Though my eyes could see the drop-off and the water far below and I could perceive the depth of the fall, the physical experience of my body was as solidly grounded as usual. It was as if the cliff wasn't real, as if the edge was an illusion and, for all that my body could tell, I might walk right up to the edge and out into the air. The thing that it reminded me of most, honestly, was that episode of Doctor Who, when the Tenth Doctor is on the edge of the underground pit on the planet that is circulating the black hole, and he's saying how, looking down into the depths, it's like a little voice in the back of his head, urging him, saying, "go on, go down, go on..." Except that doesn't really capture it. What I felt was a sense of disorientation, the complete untrustworthiness of my physical body in being able to sense, to feel the shape of its surroundings. It was as if my body itself were The Fool, blindfolded or blinded by the sunlight, feeling completely safe and at ease — the very physical part of me that is most bound by the physical laws like gravity, completely insensate of the danger.

It was... the exact opposite of my experience of stargazing on Cadillac Mountain, when I lay on my back on the huge, broad peak of the mountain (so broad that it has an entire parking lot and a visitor's center on it, with slopes that are mostly gradual drop-offs), and yet looking up into the vast distances of the stars I suddenly felt as if the earth were tipping me off into the spacious void and I felt giddy and light and hardly held by gravity. It was the opposite of that feeling, this horror of feeling so absolutely grounded and safe on the edge of a cliff despite what my eyes were telling me. And the cognitive dissonance of the physical sensation of groundedness and the perception of my eyes made me back away from the edge. Thinking on it later, I found it all too easy to imagine what it might have been like to walk right up to the edge, to peer over the way I might peer down a flight of stairs, with no more vertigo or fear, to even jump off the edge out into the air as if just jumping down off a stepladder.... And how easy it was to imagine this, and to feel how unafraid I was, made me horrified, unable to trust myself.

1/14


That experience that I just related happened on Saturday night before bed, and Jeff and I went to bed fairly early and then slept in a little bit late on Sunday morning. I was awake by 6 AM or so, but lay awake allowing my mind to wander a bit as I thought about the most recent essay I was working on &mdsh; this one on biophilia, the love of nature and the nature of love. I have been playing with this notion that the mystery or paradox of love is related in a very deep way to the mystery or paradox of nature.

In this case, love is paradoxical because it both unites and divides: through love, the lover participates in the being of the beloved and is united with the beloved in loving what the beloved loves; but it also divides, for the lover cannot love the beloved without acknowledging the individuality and separateness of the beloved, for otherwise how can there be an experience of union in the first place? Love ceases to be love if the beloved is completely subsumed into the lover, for then the lover is not taken beyond themselves in uniting with the beloved and loving what the beloved loves. This is, incidentally, the explanation that Bruteau gives for the Mystery of the Trinity in the Catholic tradition: a god of love is inherently a god of plurality, because if the nature of god is love (and to love), then that god is both lover and beloved — but if that god were only lover and beloved, then the lover would unite with the beloved in loving the lover, and the act of love would collapse back into itself like a closed circuit. In order to be and remain open and self-giving, the lover has to participate with the beloved in loving a third thing. And so a god whose nature is love must be at least tripartite, three being the sacred number of stable manifestation that doesn't collapse back down into a self-referential unity. I see this as very similar to the Taoist idea that the Tao gives rise to the One; the One gives rise to the Two [yin and yang]; the Two give rise to the Three [yin and yang joined in a dance of tension, the movement or animation of which is chi/lifeforce, symbolized by the familiar yin-yang symbol itself]; and the Three give rise to the ten thousand things. Three is the number of stable manifestation that makes the multiplicity of manifestation (i.e. the ten thousand things) possible, and so the Three is the most basic number of sacred community, the Many. This is somewhat besides the point, but in any case, the point is that the way love actually works in the world, it both longs to unite with the Other, the beloved, while also upholding the individuality of the Other as sacred and inviolate (for if it violates the individuality and sovereignty of the beloved, it would no longer be love, but a kind of violence or subjugation, for what the lover wants most is to participate with the beloved in the individuality or uniqueness of the beloved, and this cannot be done if that uniqueness is itself destroyed).

This parallels our on-going struggle with the idea of "nature" and whether we are a part of or separate from nature. When we think of nature in terms of the beloved, we can see that the answer is, in fact: both. Our relationship with nature gives rise to a paradox, in the same way that love as a creative, participatory force creates a paradox. There is no doubt that we are a part of nature, we arise from nature and in a way, nothing that we do is really "unnatural." Again, this has strong parallels with Taoism, in which the Tao is not only a "guide" but also simply the Way Things Are, so that you cannot ever really not follow the Tao. In this sense, nature just means the reality of what is. But on the other hand, we have an intuitive sense that nature is not the man-made structures and mechanisms of civilization. This intuition is confirmed by the fact that current research into human psychology and neuroscience shows that being exposed to "nature" (whether scenes of what we think of as natural or wild landscapes, or just having a pet or a houseplant around) actually does improve our sense of well-being, as well as having other benefits like improving concentration and creativity while reducing stress. So there is something substantive to our intuition that "nature" is a particular something that is not just "the way things are," for we have been able to create environments for ourselves which are not "natural." The intuition goes deeper than this, though, since if it were really that simple then we could isolate what it is about "nature" that has these effects on us, and then create a simulated version of that. But, firstly, we don't seem to be very good at doing that. (Some people have tried to get out of this paradox by saying that it is not "nature" that has these beneficial effects, but "wilderness." And while it is true that getting away from certain human-invented stimuli and stress when we go out into the wilderness does make a difference... there's also evidence that something as simple as having a houseplant will also have an effect. I hardly think most people would consider a houseplant "wilderness.") Secondly, this would not really address the ontological sense that we are, in some way, apart from nature, and that this separation has to do in some way with our self-awareness. I think it has to do not with our self-awareness, but with our capacity for creative love. (And I also think that, in that case, it may very well be likely that other animals and beings besides humans also experience this paradoxical division, since there's no reason to think human animals are uniquely capable of love.) If the natural world around us — which is to say, if the world itself or the Way Things Are — inspires love and reverence in us, then the paradox of love as both uniting and separating would "kick in," so to speak. In other words, both our perceived separation from nature, and our desire to "get back to" it, is not a flaw or imperfection, but an expression of our capacity to love existence itself.

Okay, so what does all of this have to do with The Fool? Well, I was lying in bed running through this argument in my mind and letting my thoughts wander a bit as I tried to feel out the best way to actually articulate this and illustrate it in a blog post... I kept coming back to the Romantics, and the use of the word "romanticism" as an insult to imply sentimentality. The issue of sentimentality is basically the problem of love that is unable to respect the separation that is necessary for it to be love — sentimentality reduces the object of its sentiment from a unique and whole being in its own right, to merely the stimulus for pleasurable emotions. In other words, the problem with sentimentality is the lack of distance, and this is why Romanticism as an aesthetic and philosophical movement is often attacked by modern Enlightenment/scientific thinkers for sentimentality... because nothing is more important to the scientific mind than objectivity, the distance between the observer and the object being observed which allows the observer a supposedly unbiased perspective on the Way Things Really Are. The problem, of course, is that this desire for objectivity collapses in the other direction. If sentimentality is the lack of distance that upholds the uniqueness of the Other, then objectivity is the lack of longing for union with the Other. This is why the Romantics themselves were so distrustful of the scientific/modern mindset and saw it, too, as a form of reductionism. Because, really, it is. And this distrust of science persists even today in some artistic circles. To drive this point home, I thought about using the example of my experience in grad school going for my MFA, the time I workshopped a poem I'd written based on the proof in first-order logic of the Law of Excluded Middle. When I shared this poem with the workshop class, everyone thought I was being ironic. Irony is the artist's way of maintaining distance; it doesn't appeal to objectivity, but evokes a kind of "third perspective," in some cases the perspective of the audience, which has the insight into the Way Things Really Are. So people thought I was being ironic, critical of science and the "cold hard objectivity" of logic by mocking it through poetic language.

I ended up teaching an impromptu class on first-order logic to the workshop group, in order to show them how amazing this proof of excluded middle actually is. Because it is profoundly beautiful and poetic in a completely un-ironic way. In fact, the Proof of Excluded Middle does not need irony, for it addresses and embodies the very paradox of union and separation — and of existence and nothingness — that irony seeks to address by resisting sentimentality.

1/15


One of the things that makes the Proof of Excluded Middle profound is that it is a tautology. In writing or speaking, a tautology is a redundancy, an unnecessary repetition — like that just was, I guess — and since repetition can obviously be used for the sake of emphasis, then calling something a tautology is usually a kind of insult, a way of saying that the repetition was poorly done. But in logic, a tautology is something that is true by necessity or by its very structure. In first-order logic, tautologies can be proven without regard to the premises and even without any premise at all. In this case, the Law of Excluded Middle states P ⋁ ¬P — i.e. P or not-P. In other words, statement P is either true, or it is not true.

That seems obvious, but the proof is a series of nested arguments by contradiction in which every supposition leads to a paradox. Another aspect of the proof is that the "or" — ⋁ — is an inclusive "or". An "inclusive or" holds open the possibility that both statements are true. The proof won't work any other way. In other words, hidden within the statement P ⋁ ¬P is the possibility of P ∧ ¬P (that is, P AND not-P). Interestingly, the proof begins by supposing ¬(P ⋁ ¬P), which is another way of saying P ∧ ¬P (by De Morgan's Law).

The paradox of P ∧ ¬P is an impossibility, it leads to a contradiction (represented by the symbol ⊥). It is basically nonsense. A statement can't be both true and not true at the same time (that is, if it has a determinate truth value, as all grammatical statements in first-order logic do). And yet, the Proof of Excluded Middle just won't work without that paradox. At the heart of this tautology, this truth that arises out of nothing, is a seed of nonsense, a seed of nothingness.

That is The Fool. He is the seed of madness at the heart of sense itself, the seed of nothingness that makes existence possible. And his nature is to break open the exclusive "or" which wants to insist "either this or that, but not both," and to force it to remain inclusive, to hold open the possibility that there is a little bit of madness and nonsense and nothingness in the world. (Interestingly, besides the symbol ⊥ used to designate a contradiction, first-order logic also uses the symbols 0 and F.)

Thinking of this while lying in bed that morning, I found myself getting really excited. It seemed to be especially significant that I should find myself thinking about the Law of Excluded Middle while considering the nature of love and the love of nature, and how the paradox of one might reflect the paradox of the other. But as these things sometimes happen, the longer I thought about it, the noisy my thoughts became, until there seemed to be a clamoring jumble in my mind that I just could not sort through. I'm pretty sure I had some deep, deep insights during that hour or so that are now completely flown away because they were too slippery to grasp firmly. It was a profoundly foolish experience (sorry to keep using words like "deep" and "profound"), because my mind seemed to be chaotic with noise and excitement, ready to drive me over a cliff if I let it.

I set the whole question aside for a time. Sunday afternoon (1/13), after some more rest and some food in my stomach, I sat down to begin typing this all out while Jeff was at Panera cranking through some of the work he was trying to get done. When I got to the part where I was writing about my panic attack while remembering my experience on the cliffs at Deception Pass, I set my journaling aside for a bit in the hopes of getting some of my focus back. (Again, I'm sorry if this journal entry is turning into something of a mess, since I am now writing about events that have happened to me, and thoughts I have had, since I began writing. I am trying to capture a thought process that went very quickly but in fits and starts.)

I'd already read Pollack's chapter on the Fool and refreshed my memory on Place and KHZ, both of whom I'd already read. So I settled down first to read Duqette's commentary on the Thoth tarot, which turned out to be shorter and less involved than I was expecting, though it had some interesting notes on the imagery Crowley and Harris used. (Since reading Duqette and laying out the Fool cards from my various decks, I had some insight into the three-turn spiral that circles the Fool in the Thoth and Sun/Moon deck... and it's connection to the Proof of Excluded Middle... but whatever that insight was, it's gone now.)

Then, I pulled out Meditations on the Tarot (from here on out, MotT), the anonymous text by the Christian Hermeticist written between 1900 and 1970. Reading this text held some surprises, but also helped me to ground back in my own senses a bit more, so at this point, I'd like to go through and quote some interesting passages.

I should note that, although I started this book years ago, I never got more than a few chapters into it. One reason I want to revisit this book is because Carl once told me that it was the book he was reading during that period in his life when he was transitioning from a Pagan path back towards a Christian one, and it was around the same time that I read it, moving from a Catholic path to a decidedly Pagan one. So I've always had a sense that revisiting this book might help me grapple with some of the aspects of my spiritual path that I haven't yet grappled with, and it might give me some new perspective on Catholicism that I didn't have the first time I attempted to read it.

In this particular book, the writer places the Fool in the position of the twenty-first card, right before the World, and since I never read past the fourth or fifth cards, this was my first time reading the chapter on the Fool. So I was pretty astounded when I read this, regarding the Fool's Cabbalistic correspondence when placed in the twenty-first position:

Now, it is the letter Shin (ש), the twenty-first letter of the Hebrew alphabet, which was attributed to the Arcanum "The Fool." It was said that this is the letter of the Arcanum "The Fool." And confidentially it was added that the esoteric name of the Arcanum "The Fool" is AMOR (Love).

Two things to note quickly. Firstly, there's a bunch of interesting stuff about the Hebrew letter Shin, including a couple bits of trivia: a story that centers on the fact that it can be pronounced with either an "s" or a "sh" sound gave rise to the English word "shibboleth" (meaning a word, sound or custom that is unfamiliar to certain people and can be used to sniff out foreigners or people who don't belong); also, Leonard Nimoy apparently based the Vulcan hand signal on a priestly hand sign made to evoke the three-pronged letter shin as one of the names of God.

Secondly, in both the Thoth tarot and the Rider-Waite-Smith deck, the Fool is associated with the first letter of the Hebrew alphabet, Aleph (א) ("ox"), not with Shin. (I remember reading somewhere recently that there was some debate for Waite about whether the Fool should be the first or twenty-first card, and that a three-pronged rather shin-looking wrinkle in the Fool's tunic in the original Rider-Waite-Smith deck might be Smith's nod to this fact, but I can't seem to find where it was that I read that.) In any case, I'm not sure where the anonymous writer of MotT got his association of the Fool with shin rather than aleph, but he does seem to be basing his meditations on the Marseille deck, which places the Fool in the twenty-first position.

Weirdly enough, every time I try to google the phrase "Hebrew letter aleph" so that I can get a link to the letter and see if I can find out more about it, Google seems to crash. What's up with that?

Wikipedia has this to say:

The name aleph is derived from the West Semitic word for "ox", and the shape of the letter derives from a Proto-Sinaitic glyph based on a hieroglyph which depicts an ox's head.

In Modern Standard Arabic, there is a word [...] which literally means "tamed" or "coy" [...]. This has sometimes been connected with the name of alif in folk etymology. In modern Hebrew, the same root [...] gives "me'ulaf", the passive participle of the verb "le'alef", and means trained (when referring to pets) or tamed (when referring to wild animals).

And also:

In the Sefer Yetzirah, the letter 'Aleph is King over Breath, Formed Air in the universe, Temperate in the Year, and the Chest in the soul.

'Aleph is also the first letter of the Hebrew word emet, which means truth. In Jewish mythology it was the letter aleph that was carved into the head of the golem which ultimately gave it life.

Aleph in Jewish mysticism represents the oneness of God. The letter can been seen as being composed of an upper yud (Yodh), a lower yud, and a vav (Waw (letter)) leaning on a diagonal. The upper yud represents the hidden and ineffable aspects of God while the lower yud represents God's revelation and presence in the world. The vav ("hook") connects the two realms.

Jewish mysticism relates Aleph to the element of air, The Fool (Key 0, value 1) of the major arcana of the tarot deck, and the Scintillating Intelligence (#11) of the path between Kether and Chokmah in the Tree of the Sephiroth.

Pollack also notes in her book that one can imagine the aleph glyph as a windmill that spins faster and faster until its blades can no longer be distinguished and it seems to be a single, complete circle. What I find intriguing, however, is the association of aleph with the ox as a domesticated or tamed animal, and also with the virtue of humility. These two aspects seem to be somewhat in conflict with the more mystical, airy associations of the Fool. I certainly don't think of the Fool as tamed!

In any case, MotT has this to say about the choice to position the Fool as the penultimate Major Arcana card, rather than the first, quoting Paul Marteau in his book Le Tarot de Marseille:

This Card is not specified by any number, for it would be necessary to put '0' r '22'. It cannot be '0', otherwise the Fool would then represent the universal indefinite, when he is actually mobile and symbolises a passage of evolution. On the other hand, it cannot be characterized by '22', i.e. by two passivities, implying inaction, which is absolutely contrary to the bearing of the personage represented on the Card.

This is exactly how I feel about The Fool, and why I think I struggled initially with the idea of the Fool being '0' and associated with the All/Void prior to manifestation. To me, the Fool is far too energetic and active not to manifest, and simply is not content to be '0'. To be fair, Pollack, Place and KHZ all make mention of the Fool as in some sense "mobile," the very hero who journeys throughout the cards of the rest of the Major Arcana, and who can reasonably be understood to show up everywhere (or nowhere). It's just that, compared to the emphasis on the Fool as beginning and impetus, this energetic and mobile aspect didn't seem to hold much weight. For me, however, it makes little sense to see him any other way. I'm reminded again of the Proof of Excluded Middle — though there is no premise for this proof (in other words, the premise is effectively empty, for it could be anything or nothing), the paradox of P ∧ ¬P is both the first supposition to be made within the proof, and also an essential aspect of the eventual conclusion. So for the Fool to show up twice within the deck, or to refuse to hold still in just one position but to hop back and forth from the beginning of the Major Arcana to the end and back again, is perfectly in keeping with his nature (if he is associated with the Excluded Middle, as he seems to be).

1/16


I find that I'm starting to lose my thread again, since I'm trying to recreate a thought process that happened very quickly what was now several days ago. So this will be a brief rundown of somewhat scattered ideas and insights based on my reading in MotT.

Hierarchy and Anarchy

MotT spends some time examining the connection between The Fool and political philosophy, especially in contrast with the philosophical trend towards communism/socialism in the 20th century, which the writer sees as a somewhat misguided pursuit of modern convenience and comfort. I'm inclined to think that there's a great deal of potential connection to the political philosophy of anarchy (though not necessarily the libertarian kind), and the writer seems to be heading somewhat in that direction, too, by suggesting that the Fool has a natural tendency to undermine the hierarchies of socio-political structures — a connection, clearly, with the idea of the court jester or fool who, because he is beyond the rules that govern the society, is free to criticize and mock the king. To quote:

Tijl Uelenspiegel [a trickster figure in Dutch/German folklore ...] is the archetype of revolutionary anarchism who, as a consequence of complete disenchantment in human authority, has neither faith nor law. His is the spirit of rebellion against all authority in the name of the freedom of the individual — the freedom of a vagabond who has nothing, who obeys no one, who is afraid of nothing, who expects no recompense and who fears no chastisement, beyond as well as here below ...the mocking spirit who, at the same time, turns the temples and altars of humanity upside down, making them collapse by means of his magic wand: ridicule. This wand, in touching things, transforms them: the solemn into the pompous, the moving into the sentimental, the courageous into the presumptuous, tears into snivelling, love into passing fancy... [...] Tijl Uelenspiegel is an archetype because he is at work with his wand always and everywhere whenever a mocking spirit thinks of himself as being "enlightening" by turning the things, ideas and ideals to which others hold into ridicule.

Here you can see both the light and dark sides of such a figure. On the one hand, a champion of the common people who mocks the powerful and reveals their power to be just so much hot air. On the other hand, such mockery and ridicule can run amok and turn everything to ash. The writer follows up on this with a comment about the role of doubt in much of the philosophy of the 19th and 20th centuries, quoting Kierkegaard saying, "Doubt is a despair of thought, despair is a doubt of the personality." Going on to note:

The existential philosophy of our time thus differs from traditional speculative philosophy in that it is founded on despair, i.e. upon the doubt of the whole personality, whilst speculative philosophy is founded on doubt, i.e. on the despair of thought alone. Now all despair, all doubt of the personality, amounts to — and is summarized by — Hamlet's famous question: "To be or not to be?" [...] He is the archetype of the isolation of completely autonomous consciousness, cut off both from Nature and the spiritual world &mdash man at the zero point between two fields of gravitation: terrestrial and celestial.

So the Fool is not only an archetype of rebellion and revolution and individuality, but also of despair, self-doubt and existential indecision. He is the paradox of free will and independence. He really is Buridan's Ass! (In this way, I think the depiction of the Fool in the Thoth tarot is maybe the best reflection of this aspect of the Fool, because he is pictured suspended mid-air, both feet completely off the ground, and while this might seem to be an amazing mystical ability to levitate, it also makes him look like a right fool who isn't just about to step off a cliff, but doesn't know which way to go once he has!)

In this way, he also reminds me of the figure that I called the Orphan in the manuscript of poems I was working on while in grad school. The Orphan who, through a powerful magical act of his mother (the Witch), was born of himself and wrote his own name into the book of the world. The Orphan's power was his complete independence from everything and everyone, but this itself was also a deep weakness (in the same way that the Witch's power came from her complete interconnection with everything and everyone, which rendered her incapable of connecting with another as Other and gave rise to her desire to give birth to the Orphan in the first place).... The contradictions represented by the Orphan and the Witch could only be reconciled through the figure of AnaMaria, who was the beloved-lover.

I really should have started my own religion.

Anyway, this "dark side" of the Fool that turns all things, through ridicule and mockery, to ash is what leads the writer of MotT to suddenly make a turn towards Heaven and drive his real point home, which is that no amount of worldly pleasures or pursuits on earth will satisfy our hunger for God.

.....Eh. I find this argument unconvincing, for rather than undermining hierarchy in general, the writer has merely replaced what he sees as an imperfect and ultimately unsatisfying hierarchy with one that is supposedly infallible, untouchable and "divine." I don't think the Fool's tendency to undercut authority stops at the feet of God. Interestingly, spending this week in the company of the Fool, I feel more comfortable now than I did before with his ability to undermine the idea of hierarchy, and it seems much clearer to me now than it did before that this insistence in MotT on the preservation of a divine hierarchy is really a departure from The Fool, not an expression of him. Yes, he may make a mockery of our limited knowledge and earthly pursuits, but surely our religious pursuits themselves (especially when they take the form of organized, socio-political constructs, i.e. religion) fall into that category, too? What pushed it over the edge for me was the writer's inclusion of several stories on the variation of "look at these various people who were involved in occult secret societies and eventually became disillusioned with the secrets and power they promised and went back to being regular ol' humble Christians"... To me, it seems like he gives very little convincing evidence that the practices and beliefs of Christianity are any more or less bread and circuses than the more mystical/occult traditions that he's deriding, and it smells a bit too much like the "I dabbled in Wicca before finding the true path" kind of silliness that is supposedly meant to bolster someone's claim to deep insights for having "walked on the wild side" for a while.

I'm much more interested in what happens when we hold that tension between the creative and destructive aspects of the Fool and commit to grounding ourselves here and now rather than escaping to some heavenly Big Master Plan that will resolve that tension for us. If we can see our way to a place where things appear to us to be both ridiculous and meaningful, I think we have discovered the real source of the Fool's freedom.

Job and Faust: Suffering and Success

On the other hand, I'm very much intrigued by his discussion of the biblical figure of Job and the folkloric figure of Faust as two different versions of how the world (or God) "tests" us.

In the story of Job, the test is one of suffering — the classic Problem of Evil that most monotheists face if they believe that God is both omniscient and benevolently all-loving: why do bad things happen to good people (and their wife and children, who in this story really get a raw deal since not only do they die, but they're treated as replaceable objects that indicate Job's wealth and status)? The temptation for Job is, can he keep the faith when everything goes to shit? And it's important to note that, in the oldest version of this story from the oral tradition, there's no point at which God steps in and is like, "Well done, Job, here's all your shit back." Job just suffers and sucks it up, gets schooled in God's hugeness and greatness, the end.

In the story of Faust, the test is of a different kind. Instead of suffering, it is the test of success: what happens when good things happen to bad (or at least, not so great) people? Faust finds himself bored and listless despite his worldly success, and so makes a deal with the Devil for access to unlimited knowledge and pleasure. Whereas Job is pushed to the breaking point by unjust suffering, it's arguable that Faust is pushed to the breaking point by unjust privilege and success (though in later versions of the story, he is saved by God's grace and the love of a woman he seduced who ultimately forgives him and pleads his case).

MotT makes the point that the modern world is very much a Faustian kind of world, where our knowledge of and mastery over the physical world around us seems to give us more and more power.... and we run the risk of pursuing knowledge and power for their own sake, eschewing the hard work of ethical reflection.

What I find interesting is that, in both cases, we again have a story of disconnection. In Job's case, his suffering disconnects him from society (through poverty), from his family (through death), from the natural world (through the failure of his livestock and land to provide for him) and even from himself (through diseases which transform his physical body into a kind of torturous prison).... And yet, his faith remains: he refuses to voluntarily disconnect himself from God by denouncing him. In this way, he remains connected to the wonders of the world in a way that transcends his own experiences of disconnection. When God shows up to lecture him, he awes Job with a display of his power and majesty as manifested through the natural world. ...With Faust (and I'm not as familiar with these stories, so forgive the less thorough analysis), the disconnection is in the opposite direction: knowledge and power that lead Faust to see everyone and everything around him, including his own physical body, as mere means to an end, as objects to be used and manipulated for pleasure rather than as whole individuals with intrinsic value in and of themselves. Insofar as Faust never recognizes the source of his disconnection and never seeks to remedy it, he ends up in Hell with the Devil — but in some stories, he is saved by God's grace, who rewards his striving itself, for in some ways, that striving (no matter how badly done or wrong-headed) is at least some way of refusing to give up on the possibility of connection and wholeness.

I think it's interesting that in most decks, the Fool is depicted as a kind of wandering vagabond, with only a single small bag of belongings to carry with him (if that), and yet, he is portrayed as serene and content. He neither suffers from his deprivation, nor allows a desire for more to burden him or disconnect him from the rest of the world. (**At some point, I plan to come back and turn a more careful eye on how all of this can be brought to bear on an ecological or natural polytheist perspective, and I think here might be a very interesting jumping off point (no pun intended!) into a discussion of sustainability. Just noting it now for further thought later on.)

1/17


This is getting ridiculous. Today is my last day working on this card, I swear.

In the chapter on the Fool, MotT spends some time talking about the inner alchemy of the "philosopher's stone," which the writer identifies as the union of spirituality and intellectuality:

This means to say that the process of induction (which "ascends from earth to heaven") and that of deduction (which "descends to earth"), the process of prayer (which "ascends from earth to heaven") and that of revelation (which "descends to earth") — i.e. the human endeavour and the action of grace from above — unite and become a complete circle which contracts and concentrates to become a point where the ascent and descent are simultaneous and coincide. And this point is the "philosopher's stone" — the principle of the identity of the human and divine, of humanism and prophetism, of intelligence and revelation, of intellectuality and spirituality.

What I find interesting in this is (a) the complete lack of focus on the reality of our physical embodiment as an aspect of either intellectuality or spirituality (let alone both), and (b) the deeply anthropocentric perspective. The writer spends a bit of time teasing out the differences between an avatar ("revelatory one," a god who descends to earth in human form) and a buddha ("awakened one," a human who ascends to enlightenment)... in order to make the point that Jesus Christ, as both fully human and fully divine and so the perfect union of divine revelation and enlightened humanism, could kick all y'all's asses.

In this conversation, it seems obvious that divine incarnation in human form is considered the epitome of a god "descending to earth," by which I take the writer to be referring, if only obliquely, to embodiment... There are no references to gods embodying or manifesting in physical forms other than human. Likewise, it seems pretty clear that the awakened or enlightened human being is the closest that embodied physical existence comes to reaching towards the divine, putting humanity (as usual) pretty high up in the hierarchy of physical beings. I think it's especially interesting that the writer refers explicitly to this human striving as "intellectuality" (and connects it to prayer), for this itself suggests there is something not-quite-physical about the whole process in any case. It would not be the case, for instance, that a woman who strives to "perfect" her physical body through diet and exercise would be considered "awakened" in the same way as the contemplative monk who strives to "perfect" himself by adhering to specific rituals and exercises in meditation and prayer. At least, this seems to be the clear implication from MotT.

Insofar as The Fool is an airy character to begin with, it might not be inappropriate to see him — as a figure poised on that cliff between sky and earth — to represent a certain degree of "intellectuality" that strives to bridge the physical world and the world of ideas and ideals. But perhaps it's also important to remember that his is a Fool's Errand, after all, and regardless of his idealism, if and when he steps off that cliff, he will find himself subject to the physical laws of embodied existence. For the intellect, this might not be so bad. It might just be the first lesson (or the last), which is that mind and body and spirit are not actually separate to begin with, and so the effort to "unite" them may very well lead the Fool to being taught that lesson in a most definite and abrupt fashion. But then, as my own experience on the cliffs at Deception Pass taught me, there can still be a kind of disconnect between the physical sensations that communicate an awareness of my surroundings, and my intellectual grasp of the situation that perceive the potential for danger in the future. Perhaps by stepping off the cliff, the Fool is already demonstrating that he has learned not to separate out these two, one from the other? (And now we're going in circles again...)

MotT also refers to the process of inner alchemy (fusing intellectuality and spirituality) to create the "philosopher's stone," as culminating in a final stage in which logic is "transformed from formal logic (i.e. general and abstract logic) — passing through the intermediary stage of 'organic logic' — into moral logic (i.e. material and essential logic)." The writer explains further:

In order to illustrate the transformation of formal logic into organic logic and this latter into moral logic, let us take the example of the axiom of formal logic: "the part is less than the whole." It is an axiom because the notion itself of "part" signifies nothing other than a quantity less than that of the whole. This is evident, when it is a matter of quantities. But this axiom is no longer absolutely valid with respect to the functions of a living organism. Here the part — and even a small part — can be as essential as the whole organism. The heart, for example, is only a small part of the body, but remove it from the body and the whole organism will cease to exist as a living organism. For the domain of organic functions it is therefore necessary to modify our axiom in the sense that "the part can be equal to the whole". But if we proceed from the organic world to the world of values, the moral world, we are obliged to modify the axiom still further. Here it should be said that "the part can be greater than the whole," because Caiaphas' reasoning that "it is expedient for you that one man should die for the people, that the whole nation should not perish" (John xi, 50) is right only with regard to the domain of quantities, but is false with regard to the domain of moral values. For this "one man" that he proposed to sacrifice in order to save the people was the very reason for the existence of this people: the Messiah. Moreover, history has shown that the measure taken on Caiaphas' counsel aiming at preventing military intervention by the Romans was in vain: the Romans came all the same in A.D. 70, destroying Jerusalem and the temple of Jerusalem after having massacred its inhabitants, which was exactly what Caiaphas wanted to avoid...

Moral logic, in contrast to formal logic and organic logic, operates with values instead of notions of grammar, mathematics, or biological functions.

It's going to take a while to unpack all that is problematic with this particular argument (which is why this examination of the Fool never seems to end).

My first issue with this line of reasoning is that I think the writer's example of "moral logic" is pretty shitty, since it takes for granted a very specific worldview and set of religious beliefs, and if you do not share those religious beliefs, the gist of his argument is no longer immediately obvious. For instance, if you do not happen to believe that Jesus was "the very reason for the existence of this people" — either because you don't happen to hold to this particular Christology, or because you think it might be problematic and potentially racist to suggest that Jesus was the "point" of the Jews (which kind of suggests that their only "point" now is to be the target of conversion). Even among Christians, it's arguable whether or not Jesus was "the very reason for the existence of" this particular community or even humanity in general, or if (taking Jesus' own words at face value), humanity was the very reason for his existence, as, you know, it's kinda implied in that whole "for God so loved the world that he sent his only son..." bit.

Setting that aside, I think the writer is pretty much spot on when he refers to this reasoning as "passing through" organic logic, since he seems to be arguing primarily against formal logic and its focus on quantities, and not really giving much thought at all to what he calls "organic logic" and its emphasis on qualities and relationships. Arguably, the idea of "values" (which he assigns to "moral logic") is inherently tied up with this idea of qualities and relationships, and it's not at all clear to me why organic logic by itself isn't enough to show why Caiaphas acted unethically in this scenario. If you want to illustrate why it's wrong to sacrifice one person for the sake of the many, all you need to do is posit that parts can be equal to the whole, which is the very way in which the writer characterized organic logic. It is not necessary to believe that the part is greater than the whole, only that they are of equal value. Once you make that consideration, the question of sacrifice becomes a question of the free will of the individual. Jesus's sacrifice would not have been an act of sacred redemption if he had not willingly submitted to his fate. It was the attempt to violate the sanctity of the individual for the sake of the greater good that makes Caiaphas' act unethical. And you can tell that it is a violation of organic logic rather than the supposed moral logic the writer claims that makes the act unethical because we know, without having to be told, that it would have been just as wrong to say "Let's save Jesus by killing all the Jews." Even if we accept the writer's claim that Jesus, as a part, was greater than the "whole" of the Jewish community.... we still know that it would be wrong to sacrifice that "whole" for his sake.

At least, I hope we do. I have a feeling that a failure to grasp the very obvious reason why such an act would be unethical is the very thing that led to, say, the Crusades for instance. Or almost any other example of when someone takes it upon themselves to harm or oppress others "in the name of God."

The other way we can tell that this kind of "moral logic" is not actually all that moral is that it's difficult to think of even one other example where it's an obvious ethical statement to say that "the part is greater than the whole." I asked Jeff if he could think of one, and initially he brought up Star Trek, when (and I'm not a big fan of the original series, so I might be getting this wrong) Kirk risks the entire ship to save Spock.

  • First of all, it is not obvious that this is the best and most ethical choice to make, it's a heart-wrenching dilemma (which is why it makes for good, dramatic television).
  • Second, it is a heart-wrenching choice precisely because, in this case, Spock is equal to but not greater than the rest of the ship and crew. I wouldn't say he is analogous to the "heart" of the Enterprise, obviously, but maybe some other vital organ, like the liver, filtering out the bullshit. Without him, the Enterprise wouldn't be the same, it would be impoverished. This is why we can joke about red shirts getting killed every other episode, but when it's Spock, damn it, not okay. (And as a television show, Star Trek takes this for granted. In the real world, we know that it would be unethical to shrug off the red shirt deaths more easily than Spock's and see them as "collateral damage" just because we don't personally have a relationship with them. This fact is handled more carefully in later Star Trek series.)
  • Third, imagine a scenario in which they succeeded in saving Spock but at the cost of the lives of everyone else. This wouldn't be okay. It would be a tragedy. Why should it be a tragedy, if Spock were more important than all those other people? We recognize that the only really satisfying ending is if they are both saved. And it is precisely because we hope that they will both be saved that we are willing to accept the risk of sacrificing one for the other. If the situation were different, and the destruction of the Enterprise was absolutely certain, we would in general think that it was not okay to go ahead and kill everybody else just because Spock is so damn cool.
  • Fourth and finally, we assume within the context of the show that everyone who's there has agreed to be there and is therefore a willing sacrifice if it should come to that. In real life, again, this isn't always the case and sometimes the underlings in a hierarchical and/or militaristic organization or institution have to follow orders even if it violates their own conscience. But generally, when this happens, we acknowledge it as an ethical failure, either on the part of the individual or the organization as a whole, or both. We don't generally excuse members of the military who commit gross ethical violations simply because they were "following orders"; even the lowliest soldier is explicitly told that they must abide first by the rules of their own conscience. Of course, the topic of military soldiers gets us back to the question of parts and wholes again, since it's usually assumed that soldiers fighting in a war are fighting for "the greater good." The fact that it seems so slippery and difficult to pin down when someone is acting in the role of the part or the role of the whole should itself be an indication that this whole conception of "moral logic" is not actually as clear as MotT wants to make it out to be.

But enough about Star Trek. The point is, MotT's biggest misstep is to make the very common mistake of equating moral reasoning with hierarchical reasoning, and from there to claim that hierarchy is necessary for moral reasoning. What else other than hierarchy could assert that a "part" can be not merely equal to but greater than a whole? What else other than hierarchy could create a structure for moral reasoning in which the good of certain individuals is held above the good of the community? This is the same logic which concludes that atheists can't be moral people if they don't believe in God.

But as we've seen, a morality of hierarchy does not help us to make ethical choices. In the cases when it leads us to make an ethical choice, we discover that organic logic would have been sufficient to make that choice. And there are occasions when a morality of hierarchy can lead us to make choices that are clearly unethical.

The real purpose of hierarchical morality is not to help us make ethical choices, but to make tragedy more palatable. In most scenarios demanding ethical reasoning, hierarchical morality is at best superfluous (when it doesn't unnecessarily complicate matters). It is at its most useful when stepping in to reduce the ethical tragedy of situations in which all of the choices seem equally bad. Hierarchical morality steps in to say, "Of course we need to protect the king at all costs, even if it means the whole army dies." No questions asked. Let's not make a big thing of it. It reduces the complexity of seeing not only the king, but also every individual soldier fighting for him, as fully whole and unique human beings who are all equally worthy of life. And it does this, ironically enough, almost always by resorting to formal logic by saying, "Oh, well, but we have to save the king because, without him, the whole community will fall apart!" Which is just another way of saying "sacrifice the few for the one, because the one represents and/or is needed by the many/the whole."

On the other hand, organic logic is Buridan's Ass all over again, torn between two choices that seem in all ways equal. That is the tragedy (and, in the Ass's case, the tragicomedy) of ethical reasoning. But it's not one that can be diminished or expunged by invoking hierarchy. Hierarchy can only serve to mask it, and we mask tragedy at our own peril, for it cultivates in us a tendency to desensitize ourselves and see the world in simpler terms. This seems so freaking obvious to me, and so deeply related to the Fool in his role as someone who undermines hierarchy, asserts the freedom of the individual in the face of this tragicomic paradox and pulls off the mask of easy answers to expose the complex mess underneath.... I mean, seriously, you guys.

(At this point, I'm closing in on 10,000 words devoted to this card. W.T.F.)

So let's take just a few more moments to think more carefully about the implications of "organic logic," since MotT did such a piss poor job of it and since it seems like a fruitful place to pursue this connection between the Fool and an ecological, nature-centered spirituality.

The writer describes organic logic as having to do with qualities and functions (i.e. relationships) rather than quantities and says that, in organic logic, "the part can be equal to the whole." But his later references to it seem to suggest that he actually views organic logic as just another kind of quantitative logic, lumping "biological functions" in along with mathematics and grammar. (I have to admit, I'm not sure I understand his reference to grammar in this situation — maybe Jeff has some more insight into this.) For instance, the heart is "equal to the whole" only insofar as the heart serves the body it belongs to. While we might imagine a case in which we have to save the heart in order to save the body, we're unlikely to think of saving the body in order to save the heart. And while we can, thanks to modern medicine, save the body and replace the heart with something that serves the same function, it would seem nonsensical to save the heart while sacrificing or replacing the body. So in this sense, it's not exactly true that the heart is really "equal to" the body, for its value isn't intrinsic so much as it is functional.

However, we don't need to postulate a hierarchy in which "a part can be greater than the whole" — it's perfectly possible to imagine things as having intrinsic but equal value. This is the challenge that environmentalists face in trying to talk about how best to respect and conserve particular ecosystems. On the one hand, we know that a wolf killing an elk is a natural part of a balanced ecosystem and that the wolf has intrinsic value as a living thing and deserves to be able to eat and, therefore, survive. On the other hand, we can also see the elk as having intrinsic value as a living thing that also deserves life. In addition, we might see the ecosystem of as a whole in which the wolf and the elk are only "parts" — but that doesn't mean that we can make the ethical choice to view wolves and elks as intrinsically less valuable as individual beings as the "whole" ecosystem. (This, incidentally, is the tragedy of humanity's place as just one of many intrinsically equal and valuable beings, some of which we need to eat to survive, and the things that many indigenous cultures tried to cope with and address through sacred rituals of the hunt. It's what I've generally called the "Problem of Justice," which is the non-hierarchical counterpoint to the monotheist's Problem of Evil.)

There is another aspect of "organic logic" that MotT leaves out entirely, and that's the idea that "the whole is greater than the sum of its parts." This is, basically, the concept of emergence — that relationships among individuals can give rise to an emergent order which then itself becomes a new whole. The science of ecology deals not just with systems, but with systems nested within systems, in which determining a clear-cut hierarchy of value is next to impossible. Understanding relationships in terms of ecology shows us not only that everything and everyone on the planet is interconnected, but that these connections are themselves multidimensional, so to speak. The story of modern society is one long story of running up against our ignorance about just how important even the smallest "part" can turn out to be to the "whole," and the discovery that what we took for granted as a whole is actually just one part of some other whole, while what we thought was a part is actually a whole in its own right. It's not only "turtles all the way down," but also turtles all the way up!

But now I really am talking in circles, so I think that about wraps it up. I'm still working towards clarity on this whole issue of ethics as it relates to ecology. Maybe some of the other Major Arcana cards will help me find some clarity on that issue.

I'll wrap up my work on the Fool by doing a divinatory reading (using one helpfully suggested in Pollack's book). But I'll save that for a separate post. I want to get this monstrosity up so I can stop worrying it like an old bone, at least for now.

Friday, April 20, 2012

Storyteller Spread Day 9: Treasure and Home

I'm on Day 9 of using Dianne Sylvan's Storyteller spread, today pulling the card for the ninth and tenth positions, representing The Treasure and Home.



The position held by Card 9 represents the Treasure, that which the Key (Card 8) unlocks, the outcome of the quest and the final reward for the challenges faced and overcome. Card 10 represents Home - the hero's journey has come to an end, and this last card represents how she will integrate her new skills and gifts into her life and bring them back home (or perhaps, move on to another adventure).

For the Treasure, I drew the Three of Swords - a card of heartbreak and betrayal, although there may also be some suggestion of a willing sacrifice. This card is not a final state, but a transition - the number three is a first manifestation or expression that arises from the tension and duality of two - and so this pierced heart (in this deck symbolized by a swan pierced by three swords) is not a permanent state of brokenness but a step along the continuing journey.

I was a bit surprised and discouraged to see this card - almost always interpreted as pretty straight-forwardly negative - in the position of the Treasure, although it certainly seems in keeping with the Four of Cups in the position of the Key. My immediate reaction was to think that this whole process, this quest, would just end in disappointment, betrayal and heartbreak. But the card also reminds me of the concept of the raw and exposed heart - the tender heart that is so exposed and so intimate with all things that it feels not just intense joy but also immense sorrow. This is a state of utter openness to the world, a deep vulnerability. Though it might not be the kind of reward I was hoping for, many of the other cards in the spread (which speak of finding balance between conscious and unconscious, between will and soul) seem to be leading up to this point. Even in the top row of cards (Cards 3, 6 and 9) there seems to be a progression, with Card 3, the Pack (the skills and assets the hero begins with) being the Eight of Swords, also depicting a swan pierced by swords and trapped by thorns. Card 6, which is itself the Sword (the unexpected gift or strength the hero discovers within herself that helps her defeat the Dragon in Card 7), is Temperance, which is an evolution of the calmness and hope counseled in Card 3. In this sense, the Three of Swords in Card 9 is a natural evolution, a heart that is willingly bared and raw, in which the swan no longer struggles against the blades. If you think of swords as a symbol of communication and intellect, this may even suggest a process by which cultivating centered temperance gives me a more "penetrating" insight into the realm of the heart/emotions/unconscious, or perhaps allows me to communicate about that realm more effectively in a way that touches others.

The two supporting cards I pulled for Card 9 were the Tower and the Hermit. Again, both major arcana cards supporting a minor arcana card. In the Tower, there is a suggestion that what has been built up in the past will come crashing down and the world will turn upside-down - and the Hermit certainly suggestions a time of leaving behind the life you've known before and journeying into the wild in search of truth and guidance. I'm not sure I have any deep thoughts on these cards - perhaps time will tell.

For Card 10, Home, I drew Death. Yeah, that's right.

So returning home to integrate these new gifts and skills into ordinary life will be a deeply, fundamentally transformative experience in which I literally die to my old self. .....Yay. Although I can't feel too bad about that (the imagery and artistry of the Death card in this deck, which depicts a phoenix triumphant, is so beautiful it's hard to feel bad about drawing it), part of me is not exactly thrilled that I'm going to face yet another transformative, (r)evolutionary transition or experience. (I think I've written about this before - about how sometimes I get sick of always have to evolve and transform with these spiritual or metaphorical deaths - but I guess that's Pluto's influence in me.)

The two supporting cards for this final drawing are: the King of Wands and the Seven of Wands. So once again, it seems clear that this is related to my projects and initiatives, and probably in particular my podcast work and my work as a volunteer naturalist. The King of Wands is a powerful figure who holds a great fiery energy in careful check, curved around himself like wings. He is a figure of clear sovereignty and power, but also of charisma and active initiative, although all of this is expressed through structure and order. The Seven of Wands is also a fairly position card (at least in this deck), depicting a mother fox protecting her young in an act of selfless courage - it is a card that symbolizes standing up for what you believe in and fighting for what you care about, and finding without yourself the courage and faith to overcome all obstacles even in the face of discouragement and competition. The fact that the artist specifically mentions faith is not necessarily a coincidence, I think.

I'm feeling somewhat bewildered by these intense cards and not sure exactly how to interpret them (though part of me keeps wondering just how much my daily drawings are influenced by my own moods and energies on a given day - since in the past couple days my period has started and my mood has, as usual, become somewhat worn and stretched thin (like butter over too much bread). Perhaps it would be helpful to revisit this spread at some point later, drawing all ten cards during the same session to see what insights they might yield.

I also want to experiment with a new spread Jeff has discovered in the book that accompanied his new steampunk tarot deck - one in which you rearrange the spread as you go and use the cards like interlocking gears to explore alternative outcomes and how to get there. Half divination, half magical working. I'd be curious about exploring that.

I also want to know what Jeff plans to do as his final "wrap-up" ritual as part of this spiritual work. I'd like to do something for myself, but I think I'll need at least a few days to ponder it and come up with something.

* I should add - Google has updated the Blogger UI and managed to make it suck even harder in a pretty profound way (like, f'ex, not automatically inserting paragraph breaks in the html, and also generally just making the dashboard hard to navigate with WAY TOO MUCH WHITE SPACE and, bizarrely, no bottom margin so that I'm literally typing at the very bottom of my screen with no way to scroll). So.... yeah. Good job, Google. What the fuck? Do you have a lot of self-hatred or something? Are you trying to fail? Are you trying to make people not like you? ::headdesk::

Wednesday, April 18, 2012

Storyteller Spread Day 8: Key

I'm on Day 8 of using Dianne Sylvan's Storyteller spread, today pulling the card for the eighth position, representing The Key.


The Key is what will unlock the Treasure (Card 9), the reward or gift that results from facing the Dragon (Card 7) and overcoming that challenge. It represents the evolution of the Dream (Card 2) - how the hero's motivations have changed during her journey and it offers divine guidance on how to move forward.

The card I drew for this position was the Four of Cups - arguably the first "negative" card of the spread. I'm not sure how to interpret this card in this position. In this deck, the card depicts a mermaid, and the artist tells the story of one who has grown bored with the constant monotony of the sea and its beings, so she swims higher than she's ever gone before and hoists herself out onto land. For a moment, lost in thought and day-dream, she has a glimpse of a realm of sky and sea blended, the water a perfect mirror of the sky so that the horizon seems to disappear - and for the first time she sees her own reflection and is able to perceive her beauty. Then this day-dream is disturbed as she reaches out to touch her reflection in the water, and she realizes the strange denizens of the air are watching her and she is not as alone as she thought. She begins to feel the cold dry air on her skin and longs to slip back into the ocean and return to her watery home.

The number four represents stability and form, but it is often interpreted among the suits as an expression of stagnation and fossilization, becoming trapped in patterns - in the case of Cups, becoming emotionally disengaged and bored, wallowing in self-indulgence and old emotional habits or patterns. Yet there's also a kind of echoing dualism in the number four (2 + 2 and 2 X 2) that creates the potential for dynamic tension that can raise the energies of the suit or card to a new level. It seems like this is what the artist of this deck was exploring when she depicted the story of the mermaid who sought the surface - though there is self-indulgence, there is also an opportunity for real introspection and a glimpse of the self that has never been seen before (which I guess makes sense - if we can take a step back and recognize emotional patterns or habits as they are and perhaps see where they come from).

I'm not entirely sure if this card is showing me a "negative" truth, the realization of which (and so the avoidance or transformation that may result) is the "key" to unlocking the treasure.... or if the card is meant to represent some more obscure but positive "key." Is the key here what I should avoid, or what I should come to appreciate as a blessing in disguise? I'm just not sure.

I drew two supporting cards seeking clarity on this question, and the two that I drew were the High Priestess (II) and the Chariot (VII). Again, two major arcana cards supporting a minor arcana card - and as in previous spreads, both major arcana cards face in towards the center, towards each other and towards the primary card of the spread. Both of these cards express a certain duality in them. The Chariot, for obvious reasons: the mastering of two wild charges who both want to go each their own way, who have been brought into relationship and mastered - this card, I've always understood, represents the mastery of will and self-discipline, and to some extent the conscious mind, over the wildness of the subconscious with its urges and desires (and fears and uncertainties). The goddess of victory tames even the depths of the sea, which calms for her as she rides her chariot across it. The High Priestess is also a card of duality: the card is numbered II (although technically its the third major arcana card the way they're normally organized), and the High Priestess herself stands between the two pillars which, in this deck, are depicted as the forking limbs of a mighty tree. She spread her two arms wide, creating a kind of chalice of her body. She stands upon the threshold to the mysteries, especially the dark mysteries of the subconscious realm. So these two cards, in addition to representing dualities in themselves, also reflect two aspects of a central duality: the balance between subconscious and conscious mind. In each, a goddess aspires to the heights of her power, the epitome and very embodiment of her realm. Even their postures seem to mirror each other - the High Priestess raises her arms and lifts her hands above her, while the Chariot goddess throws her arms down and back, hands outstretched to her sides.

I'm still left wondering what exactly this Key is. If this is meant to be an evolution of the Dream - the Ace of Cups - perhaps it is the maturation of the vision seen reflected in the gift of the chalice, this time brought into manifestation and form. If the Four of Cups represents not only a certain risk of boredom and stagnation but also an opportunity to push beyond that to the next "level" or plane, then it seems the energies of the major arcana cards are supporting that effort with all the power they can muster. I'm just not sure how this will manifest in my life - perhaps taking on more public roles as a podcast and as a volunteer teacher will give me a chance to step back and see myself for the first time, even if I have to push myself "out of my element" every once in a while. What strikes me about the Four of Cups is that, though there are four chalices carried by the air sprites, the ocean itself could be thought of as a fifth chalice. And while the mermaid may ignore the other four, she gives her full attention, as well as her longing, to that far vaster and deeper chalice of the sea - and she can always go back to it whenever she likes, there is nothing forcing her to stay on land but her own will and determination. Considering that I began this journey with the Nine of Cups, utterly submersed in the watery realms, perhaps the "key" that this latest card represents is just the reminded that the vision, the dream, is still alive and it is possible to return to that vision for renewal and a refreshed, revived sense of motivation whenever I need it. And maybe by doing so, I'll step more fully into the roles of High Priestess and Charioteer alike, both sovereign of my own conscious mind and will and devotee to the deeper mysteries of the subconscious realms of the soul

Monday, April 16, 2012

Storyteller Spread Day 7: Dragons

I'm on Day 7 of using Dianne Sylvan's Storyteller spread, today pulling the card for the seventh position, representing The Dragon.


The Dragon is the card that represents the central issue or challenge at the heart of the entire journey or quest - the main obstacle that the hero will face along her path, the challenge that she has been called upon all along through dream and vision to rise to meet. It's the "Big Bad" - what needs to be confronted, overcome, understood and integrated in order for the hero to move forward and obtain the key and treasure which she will bring back to her home and her community at the end of the quest.

For this card, I drew the Two of Wands. I find this interesting - Wands have appeared consistently as a very important suit throughout this meditative work, but this is the first time that a card of that suit has actually appeared in a primary position in the spread. The Two of Wands depicts a courageous leader perched atop a cliff, seated astride a powerful lion, gazing out across the lands that stretch away below her. She has worked hard to attain this success and authority over the lands she now rules, and she has had to embody not only self-discipline and dedication but also boldness, courage, willingness to take risks. Yet now, the place she finds herself in is somewhat isolated and isolating - her authority and success has effectively raised her above others and kept her separate and apart. There is an ambivalence and duality in this card that must be confronted, contemplated and weighed in the balance. The polarity of Two can give rise to balance, harmony and the kind of in-tune tension that sings when played well - but it can also create harmful tension, stress and unhealthy dualism that results in division and strife.

This card to me seems to speak directly to the task I have before me: the biggest challenge will be handling the success, and what it will demand of me in terms of work and commitment, courage and bravery. Success in this initiative is a mixed blessing, as it will undoubtedly require a great deal of time and energy to keep it going. Perhaps I also have a fear of such success, for the ways in which it might beholden me to others and "lock me in" to a structure that might not suit me in the long run, or simply not be flexible enough.

Yet the polarity of two, and the emphasis on balance in the last several cards, seems to suggest also that this is a challenge that I can overcome, that I can face with grace and learn how to handle adeptly given enough time and practice (and patience!). The two supporting cards I drew were The World (XXI) and The Emperor (IV) - once again, it seems that there are incredibly powerful spiritual forces at play in what might on the surface seem to be a fairly mundane, small matter of a job. The images of the World and Emperor seem to echo each other in important ways - both figures hold a sphere or globe of light, both figures stand before a circular background that seems to encompass the all of everything, both figures even where horned headdresses. This last point might not be all that important, but it strikes me as curious. The horns of the Emperor - being two - seem to reflect the two wands of the primary card; whereas the horned headdress of the World figure has only a single horn curving away from her forward, almost like a unicorn's horn, and this to me suggests a more unified, holistic approach or worldview. The circular backgrounds of the cards echo each other - but while the background of the World card seems to have grown organically from the living greenery around her, the background of the Emperor is carved in stone, a symbolic throne depicting his dominion over all things and his bringing order to chaos in a deliberate, controlled way that is distinct from the organic, emergent order that grows up in the World card. And while the World figure seems to cradle her sphere of light in her arms, resting her forehead lightly against it as if communing, the Emperor holds his sphere squarely and purposefully between his two hands, almost as though he is pressing and molding it into shape. All these comparisons generally reflect the differences between the cards' meanings: the Emperor is a card of structure and rulership, authority and sovereignty in a more mundane political sense - while the World is a card of harmonious, natural order and beauty emerging from the chaotic flow of nature with whom the World figure communes on a deeper, more intuitive, more receptive level.

Yet these two cards also hold a lot in common, as I already pointed out, suggesting that they aren't necessarily irreconcilable opposites to each other. The figure in the Two of Wands card faces towards the Emperor and away from the World, who faces out to the left away from the other two cards in a kind of private moment of her own. This seems to me to suggest that part of the challenge will be m tendency to focus too much on the structure and order involved in the hard work to bring my project initiative to fruition, and that this may prove very difficult for me. On the other hand, learning to integrate a more relaxed "go with the flow" attitude may help me to integrate these energies better. The World figure doesn't just face away from the structure and ruling order of the Emperor, but she faces towards all of the cards in the spread that have come before - including the cards representing the motivating vision (the gift of intuitive wisdom and fanciful day-dreaming in the Ace of Cups), the skills of calmness and hope that I carry with me, the map that guides along the middle way, and the sword that balances opposites and brings them together to create life and dynamic beauty. Perhaps most important of all is the place where the journey began, the Nine of Cups. The World faces all of these, seeming to suggest that in order to overcome this challenge of discipline and order - and to do so without losing my sense of joy and spontaneity that will make the work fulfilling - I will have to remember the motivations and visions and dreams of the past, and carry those with me, following their example at times.

Perhaps not a very scary dragon on the face of it - but I find myself nervous about whether or not I'll be able to rise to that challenge. Trusting in the support and natural, emergent, beautiful order of the universe to carry this work along (like the seeds cast to the wind!).... that's what gives me hope and helps me stay calm. There's no doubt that, either way, this is very important soul-work.

Sunday, April 15, 2012

Storyteller Spread Day 6: Sword

I'm on Day 6 of using Dianne Sylvan's Storyteller spread, today pulling the card for the sixth position, representing The Sword.


The Sword represents a skill, asset or strength that the hero discovers during her completion of the Task set forth by the elder (in Card 4). It signifies a potentially overlooked issue that will have an important impact on the outcome of the quest and the hero's ability to face the Dragon (in Card 7).

The primary card I drew for this position was Temperance (XIV), the first major arcana card in a primary position in the spread. This card represents balance and harmony between opposites - a dynamic relationship that creates tension and movement and ultimately an incorporation of the two into a healthy integrity. While either opposite can become destructive and overwhelming when isolated on its own, together they form a whole that is larger than either one alone, that "includes and transcends" without subsuming or quashing either.

Though the meaning of Temperance leapt out at me immediately, I'm not sure exactly how it fits into the larger journey - though it does seem like balancing opposites that are in tension with each other has been the theme for the past couple drawings. Card 4, the Page of Pentacles, had major arcana cards as its two supporting cards, each facing inward to support the primary card, and each representing one of the aspects of the Page of Pentacles in a refined and heightened form (the Fool, the energy and youth and eagerness of the Page, and the Hierophant, the earthiness and structure of the Pentacles, each expressed as spiritual urges). Card 5, the Nine of Pentacles, seemed to suggest a "middle way," marrying the spiritual and the material world, creating a dynamic communion between free-spirited creativity and serious self-discipline; its two supporting cards, the Four of Wands and the Knight of Swords, faced outward away from each other, suggesting distractions along the path pulling in opposite directions, towards frivolous freedom and fleeting energy on the one hand and an overemphasis on the intellect and "being right" on the other. So it seems that the Temperance card is illustrating how important it will be for me to find a healthy, dynamic balance between opposites that might otherwise threaten to pull me off track in various directions - and yet, it also seems to say that if I can discover that balance, I will also be able to create a spaciousness within which I can center and find respite and poise when I need it.

The two supporting cards I pulled seem to reinforce this lesson of balancing opposites: the Ace of Wands and the Nine of Wands. Both within the same suits, and once again both cards facing in towards each other and towards the central, primary card - the ace and the nine seem to illustrate opposing energies each being brought in to serve a single purpose. On the one hand, you have the gift of new initiatives, new energy and new activity as represented by the Ace; on the other hand, you have the Nine with its suggestion of completion and, in this case, an emphasis on vigilance and continued discipline in order to keep one's strength and purpose clear. This spread seems to suggest to me, over all, that a successful balance of energies means both being open to new possibilities and initiatives, while also being on guard and careful about how to move forward. Constantly taking on new projects can lead to burn out and frivolousness, but being too careful can lead to stagnation and boredom - so a balance between the two is necessary. Both openness, and vigilance. Sounds a great deal like the concept of attention and attending that I have meditated on before, the open attentiveness of attending to (and upon) the world around us - which itself stretches us and challenges us in new ways. The fact that these two cards are of the same suit and are facing towards one another and towards the central primary card of Temperance seems to me to say that these opposites are things that can be integrated and held in relationship with one another.

Since much of this meditative work has focused on the direction my career seems to be heading, I think this is once again emphasizing the importance of balance between discipline and creativity, organization and joyful enthusiasm, that I'll need to find to make this work enjoyable and successful. This is true both for the podcast and the volunteer naturalist work. It's a lesson that is so important for people who are self-employed or work from home, I think, because it's so easy to fall out of balance when you're not subject to anyone else's oversight - either driving yourself too hard, or cutting yourself too much slack. Today is a good example. I began the day feeling somewhat exhausted, but my energy seemed to gather towards the afternoon and I felt in a good mood - but for some reason, after dinner I began to feel increasingly dissatisfied and anxious, though for no clear or particular reason.... though I think largely it had to do with me slightly freaking out - again - over how much work two podcast shows a week might turn out to be, and worries over not being able to find a good rhythm and balance to the work. It seems like this card is counseling me to relax a bit and trust in my ability to find that balance, so long as I keep the importance of balance in mind - and perhaps make sure that I make time to ground, center and attend regularly. Obviously, balancing my physical needs with my spiritual and emotional needs is going to be an issue, too, and perhaps regular spiritual meditation in the mornings will play an important role in maintaining balance and keeping my energy and optimism up. After all, the major arcana card does suggest that this is something going on at a deeper level than mere "mundane" reality but also involve the realm of the soul/spirit. The image of the card pretty closely reflects the actual Three Realms meditation that I perform regularly, and I did notice when trying to enter a deeper meditative state to reflect on the card that it was difficult for me to hold my concentration. I got a brief glimpse of the swirling sphere of opposites, and a vague sense of the angel Temperance handing me an actual sword that had a double-edge that shone in two reflected colors and vibrated in a way that create a beautiful song (like a singing bowl, almost). The vibration seemed to come from holding the sword still and perfectly balanced before me, almost like a torch or sword of light.

So balancing the spiritual and the physical may just be the important but overlooked issue that will play the biggest part in how this whole journey plays out and how I eventually face the Dragon to come.

Thursday, April 12, 2012

Storyteller Spread Day 4: Witch's Task

I'm on Day 4 of using Dianne Sylvan's Storyteller spread, today pulling the card for the fourth position, representing The Task.


This card represents the task set forth by the wise elder whom the hero meets in the depths of the forest when she first sets off on her quest - a struggle or challenge that the hero must face and overcome using what assets she has brought along with her. (As a result of facing this first challenge, the hero is afterwards given two gifts, represented by cards 5 and 6 later in the spread.)

The card I drew for this position was the Page of Pentacles. This card is a fairly positive one, representing new opportunities and possibilities coming into manifestation, and a sense of stability and security in the physical world. The Page of Pentacles is one who has self-discipline, diligence and commitment, but still retains that sense of youth and curiosity that makes her unafraid of moving forward to try new things.

I'm not quite certain exactly how this card fits into the spread at this point, and it may become clearer as I move on and draw more cards.

I was going to skip drawing supporting cards, since tonight is another late night and I'm very tired, but I just felt like I should do so while I'm in the moment, even if a deeper exploration of the cards' meanings has to wait for tomorrow.

The two supporting cards I drew were: the Fool and the Hierophant. These are powerful cards, especially to be supporting the Task card representing the initial challenge on my journey. Each card faces in towards the center, the Fool and Hierophant both looking towards each other and towards the center, primary card of the Page of Pentacles (who faces forward). The energy of this three card spread of primary and supporting cards definitely seems to be concentrated on the center card, with intense energies from the major arcana supporting cards acting as balance to each other and quite literal support of the center card. The Fool, on the one hand, seems to reflect the youth and eagerness of the Page, the willingness to jump in and get started, to take a risk and begin. The Hierophant, on the other hand, reflects the grounded, more material or physical nature of the Pentacles suit - he is concerned with the rules that govern the spiritual life and the laws of nature which all things follow in order to maintain harmony.

So it seems that these three cards suggest, maybe, that my first challenge will be a new opportunity on the material plane - a new job, for instance - that will require both youthful enthusiasm and risk, and self-discipline and steady work. Luckily, it seems like these energies are helping and mutually supporting each other, all working towards the same goal, rather than pulling in opposite directions (as they might have been, if I'd drawn them in a slightly different order in the three-card spread). The suggestion or advice seems to be to take the plunge into hard work, to make the leap into a task that will require commitment and study.

In a lot of ways, this seems to represent pretty clearly what I'm involved in right now, both with my volunteer work and with my efforts with podcasting as a serious career shift. In both situations, I face a new job or task that demands both committed effort and the courage to take a leap into the unknown. And in both case, the long-term goals are not as important as the willingness to just take that first leap, that first jump into the work. (The two major arcana cards certainly seem to suggest that this challenge, right in this moment, is momentous enough that putting my full weight into facing that challenge and taking on that task will have profound effects rippling out, no matter what the specific consequences are.)

That's about all I have in me for tonight, though. I hope to take some time (tomorrow, maybe) to look at the spread that I've drawn so far and look at these four cards - Nine of Cups, Ace of Cups, Eight of Swords and Page of Pentacles - all together in the same spread, in relation to each other instead of in isolation or in the context of the supporting cards. I'll see how much energy I have tomorrow for that kind of work....